Real Change

Obese, Homeless AND Determined

Real Change

Posted by VivianBloomfield on 6 years ago Wasn't sure what Life Forum to start my thread....so Real Change made most sense because that's what I am going through in life right now. I needed to make some real tough "big girl" decisions. Like most Americans the Recession hit me, stripping me of my job and robbing me of every savings I did have, including my 401k. I DID find a new job right before my unemployment ran out. However, it pays me HALF of what I was making 4 years ago and LESS than what I was collecting on unemployment. As a result of relying on food banks during the 2 years I was unemployed, my weight piled on (I'm sure the stress helped with packing on the fat). I realize if I don't do something drastic, I WILL die. I'm 5'5" and weigh 345! CRAZY!!! So, it came down to HOW can I survive. The only logical answer was to give up my apartment and live in my car. I secured a storage unit for $75/month (I joke and tell myself it is the walk-in closet I've dreamed of my whole life). I joined a local chain gym costing me $10.90/month which is open 24/7 allowing me access to cardio equipment and a daily shower. I will have a budget of about $50-60/week for produce. I know that doesn't sound like much BUT a local grocery store has a reduced produce rack I intend to visit each day, especially since I won't have access to a fridge. I WILL have access to an electric outlet in the early morning hours so I can juice for the day and take it with me in the cooler I plan to purchase at the local Walmart. The local convenience store will let me have a LARGE cup of ice for twenty-five cents. I already own a Champion Juicer from years back so I feel one step ahead of the game:)! As of September 1st, I will be a "working homeless" or as I refer to my journey as "Homeless For My Health". I figure starting August 1st will give me some time to figure out juices I like so when 9/1 rolls around, it won't be too much of a stress while trying to adjust to my living situation. I feel having a laptop and internet access at the library and hopefully some support from this forum I will succeed at turning my ENTIRE life around so I CAN be in an apartment again. Right now, I am trying to treat this as an amazing adventure. A once in a life time opportunity:)! I know HALF the battle at succeeding at ANYTHING is having a positive mind and belief in yourself:)! I will try to post each day. I'm also trying to create a blog so that I can share pics and stats of my journey along the way. Thanks for reading my post:)! *D*B*A*, Vivian Bloomfield:)!

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  • VivianBloomfield

    6 years ago
    WOW!! thank you ALL so much for the kind words, blessings and good wishes:)! My heart is just filled with so much love right now, if it weren't for the fact I am currently in the library, I would cry...honest! I think for so long I have held so much inside, allowed the food, the fullness from it to numb me....I have a feeling a lot of tears will shed from within me as I just fast. Like an onion, I have MANY layers but in the form of emotions that need to come out. I should have my blog up and going soon I have named it www.homelessformyhealth.blogspot.com On there, I will write more in detail of my journey as it unfolds, along with pics, too. You ALL made my day:)! I was pleasantly surprised by all the postings:)! As far as juicing, I had an AMAZING first day:)! I'm going to go 7 days before I weigh-in--promise to keep you updated. Tonight on the way home from work, I stopped in to check out the reduced produce rack. I got a 5 lb bag of green apples for $4.00:)! and 6 lemons for $1.50:)!---THRILLED with this find (I think my "ginger" is going to be lemons---I noticed Joe Cross LOVES his ginger)---then they had a sale on 2pound bags of carrots BUY ONE, GET ONE FREE for $1.99---so I got a total of 8 pounds of carrots for JUST $4.00! I LOVE kale and it's cheap so I got a pound for .99:)!....so I spent $10.50---.50 more than I plan to budget BUT also got enough I think for 2 possibly 3 days:)! Words alone can't express how blessed I feel to have snagged SO much for so little:)! I believe the Universe is embracing me in this little quest I have taken on for myself:)! I tend to like veggies more than fruit, so my juices will mainly consist of veggies. Today, I had carrot, apple, celery and lemon juice. IT was really yummy. I am drinking six 12 ounce servings every 2 hours AND at least 2 quarts of water. I also had a few beets, cucumbers and zucchini from the food bank, which I made juices with, too. I took a picture of my first "juicy rainbow":)! I'll post it on my blog. It was almost too pretty in those jars to drink...BUT I DID drink it...lol:)! This weekend, I'm focusing on packing up my apartment to start moving my stuff into my "walk-in" closet:)!...aka storage unit. Again, I really lucked out there, too. They pro-rated July, so it cost me JUST $22 for July AND August is free:)!....I DO believe when you have your mind/heart set on your dream, the Universe seems to effortlessly move mountains:)! Thanks for reading..stay tune and I PROMISE to keep you posted:)! *D*B*A* Vivian Bloomfield:)
  • nicolahurst

    6 years ago
    Vivian you have just inspired me so much! I thought my situation was bad... wow. I posted what I am going through under "desperately seeking help" in the general thread. You can read it there. I will be following your post and I am in the fight with you. Together we can do this!
  • VivianBloomfield

    6 years ago
    WHOA that was a long post! I just wanted to reply individually to the post:)!---Caroline: thanks for the idea of the battery fans--I too reside in the East Coast Area...I've done a TON of internet searching on ideas to manage a "residence" while homeless. I actually have purchased black poster board from the Dollar store, traced the outline of my side car windows and cut out exact fits I can tape up with duct tape. I plan on using my sunblock for the front window, as you suggested. Thanks for the suggestions:)! Maxi: thanks for your kind words....is Susan Miller's post on this forum? deborah: WOW!! I can't imagine being homeless with a child... YOU are the strong one! I don't have any children---never been married. I couldn't imagine the strength it took to not only care/watch for yourself but also a little one! Please keep in touch with me:)! Rita: thank you for the words of encouragement. Yes, right now I AM calm and at peace with myself over my decision. The saying you do what you HAVE to do in order to survive is so true! I REFUSE to lie down and die! I MUST fight...FIGHT for my VERY own life! I DO feel the fight in me----honestly, I did NOT feel it for a LONG time. Something just clicked and well, with a change of the thoughts in my mind (As well as WHAT I'm saying to myself)...I have re-lit a pilot light that was snuffed out these past 2 years. I'm grateful for these forums, as it allows me to "talk" and connect with others:)! The blog, I woke up one morning last week and it hit me I HAD to blog, too! Now, I am NOT a computer literate person BUT I have been giving a used camera, refurbished laptop AND an old video recorder within the past month at varying times. I laughed because I am SOOOOO not a technology toy person. Apparently, they are old BUT they work...so, it got me thinking perhaps this is the Universe telling me to create a blog...Lord knows, I have all the gadgets to do so...now, I just have to learn and with the internet access and the tutorials, well I don't have an excuse not to:)!....yes, this is going to be SOME journey---so glad to already have a few friends along for the hike:)!!!
  • NLRivera

    6 years ago
    Vivian, Wow, you are living an incredible story. I pray for many blessings for you. Let us know when that blog is up. You are such an inspiration! The hubby and I will keep you in our prayers. Much love, Nicole
  • Ranger Rick

    6 years ago
    Vivian, It sounds like you are ready for a total life makeover! I hope you get your blog up and running, as I think that you could be an inspiration to many people. There was an episode of Extreme Makover: Weight Loss Edition, a few months ago, that followed a gentleman who was also "unhomed" and living in his car. It was unbelievable to see someone who was so down, and at rock-bottom, pick himself up and reinvent himself. If you get a chance, while at the library, try searching the ABC website to see if you can find it. It seems that you have already completed the hardest part of your journey - setting your mind to it, and taking the first step - we will pray that you find the strength to follow it all the way through (I have a feeling that motivation will not be a problem)! Good luck, and keep us up to date!
  • NewDay4Caroline

    6 years ago
    Vivian -- how are you doing today. Thinking of you and hoping your have a great, juice-filled day.
  • VivianBloomfield

    6 years ago
    Hello Everyone:)! It's Saturday and I FINALLY got a chance to get to the library...waited outside for it to open; yes that's how BAD I wanted to check in and chat:)! My blog www.homelessformyhealth.blogspot.com is up....reminder, I am NOT a technical person, it's basic, simple but straight from my heart, which I feel is most important, at least for now:)! NICOLE: thank you for your support:)! RICK: YES, I saw that episode Of EMWLE:)! I LOVE that show! Personally I believe it to be so much more authentic than Biggest Loser BECAUSE Chris Powell keeps the person in THEIR environment! Seriously, how many of us can just "check out of life" and go to a ranch and workout most of the deal? Yes, it would be great BUT you also don't face the forces/issues that were key to you putting on the weight in the first place, so when they come back home, they have a TON of stresses---getting use to the new them, dealing with issues that were most likely the cause of their excess weight, trying to now figure out HOW to fit in exercise in their REAL environment, etc. This is just my opinion of course.Yes, it IS awesome to witness their before and after versions. Ironically, the episode of EMWLE you speak of aired around the time I had to make my choice...my life/health OR a roof over my head?! Seeing he was able to do it, was sign to me that I made the right choice. I know with the right attitude, the Universe WILL provide for me...put the right people, things, places, etc in my path as I need them on this journey. Again, grateful I at least have a car to stay in....MANY homeless people don't even have that....so I feel blessed:)! CAROLINE: HOWDY girl:)! sorry I couldn't post sooner. Thanks for checking in on me:)! So, I really wanted to just start juicing on August 1st BUT I had FRESH FREE produce offered to me...salads, raw veggies, etc....SOOO, I juiced for breakfast and lunch and decided to eat a BIG raw salad (much like I use to) for dinner. Well, let me tell you, I believe my stomach was in TOTAL shock! ALL those fresh veggies at ONCE!....I was on the toilet (thank goodness I still have a few more weeks of access to one at anytime:)!) most of the night! I could not believe HOW my body reacted! You would have thought I ate a box of Ex-lax!.....sorry not to be gross..but literally it was like pouring Drano down a clogged pipe! So, that was Wednesday night/early Thursday morning! Thursday, I had the same menu ONLY I found myself NOT as hungry for such a big salad as I had the night before...could be subconsciously I didn;t want to be sitting on the toilet all night again...lol:)! I had a FEW more episodes BUT nothing like the night before. Friday, I had juice for breakfast, steamed veggies for lunch (literally ONE pound) and some juice for dinner. Just TWO bathroom episodes last night:)! Now, I initially stated I was going to weigh in (I posted that on my blog: www.homelessformyhealth.blogspot.com) every 7 days/once a week. Well, i was 345 as of 8/1/2012...today JUST 4 days later with all the juices, salad and steamed veggies, I am 335:)!.....that's about 2.5 pounds per day. Now, I know much of that is probably water weight BUT I also feel, from ALL those bathroom trips, I also cleaned out some "stuff" that's been caught up in my "piping". I DO feel a bit tired, not sure if that's detoxing, lack of sleep from so many bathroom trips, the hot humid weather OR a combo of all:)! Oh, I also have been drinking about 1-2 quarts of water/day. 10 years ago, I was a HUGE diet soda drinker..literally a liter or 2 per day. When I gave it up and switched to water I felt so much better. I tried a diet soda about a year after giving it up and it tasted like a glass of chemicals! Seriously! I thought maybe the waitress poured me a glass from an old bottle, etc. She gave me a fresh one and I just could not swallow it! AMAZING how the taste buds change! I will NEVER touch soda and have not for OVER 10 years now because of that chemical taste! It really clicked in my brain, it was NOT a natural healthy food! I drink JUST water. Yes, I would rather go thirsty than drink soda or ANY other form of liquid! Okay, off my soap box:)! Tomorrow, Sunday, I DO plan on 100% juicing. I have off from work (still getting into the swing of the new job---focusing on the good stuff of it, being grateful for what it CAN offer me verses focusing on what it can't---this mindset is really helping me:)!), will be packing, as I plan to do once I am done here, and go back to my apartment, so if I DO feel tired I CAN take a nap. Also, I think packing will keep my mind busy and my hands away from food....not that I have any in the fridge/cabinets...lol:)!....just the veggies/fruits fromm the reduced produce rack I have for juicing. One good thing about being single, no need to keep excess food in the house:)! Well, that's about all for now. Tomorrow, Sunday, I won't be posting, library is closed:(...I will try to get back to the library on Monday to check in. Wishing EVERYONE a WONDERFUL weekend:)! Also, THANK YOU to all who have posted, it truly means the world to me....makes me feel like I am NOT alone. Thank you to those who have read but did not post. I feel your energy, too:)! ALL your kind words, well wishes, prayers, etc REALLY fill my heart:)!---it is making a positive impact on my life and helping me to dig in deep and change my mind---the mind is on control--the flesh is dumb and weak---our bodies follow like little puppies to whatever our minds think...be it a thought, action, etc. Just in these past 4 days, I have been more aware HOW I phrase my thoughts as well as the words that come out of my mouth. What we think and say, we get in return. It may sound silly and simple, but it is true. I found myself the other day telling myself out loud and in my head I'm too tired...and guess what I just became MORE tired! So, I tried to catch my thoughts and words. I repeated to myself and out loud, I am full of energy. I am feeding my body BOLTS of lightening! I am a SUPER GIRL! I laughed out loud a few times (even now) when I said those words and thought them BUT do you know after a while I wasn't feeling so tired:)!...call it crazy (or me) but it worked:)! Just some food (especially those 100% juicing) for thought:)! *D*B*A*, Vivian Bloomfield www.homelessformyhealth.blogspot.com
  • Ranger Rick

    6 years ago
    Wooo Hoooo! Way to go Vivian!
  • Gabriel

    6 years ago
    I was 354lbs 65 inch waist 5"10' Battled my way to 223 BY GODS GRACE, then lost my job in 08 and Home in 2010, went up to 309... GODS power again, lovingly & patiently helped me to get to 245, my goal 170...got STUCK due to my will bound/frozen & in slavery to appetite...then Joe Cross movie appeared... I said, THAT'S IT, if him & Phil can do that, SO CAN I BY GODS GRACE!! 2day is day 4!!! THIS TIME I WILL & STAY IN THE WINNERS CIRCLE because, I WILL NOT frustrate GODS grace this time... I had ALL this weight off B4, but sadly squandered it instead of living a Praise GOD thankful life... Lam 3:22-26 22 It is of the LORD's mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. 23 They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness. 24 The LORD is my portion, saith my soul; therefore will I hope in him. 25 The LORD is good unto them that wait for him, to the soul that seeketh him. 26 It is good that a man should both hope and quietly wait for the salvation of the LORD.
  • Gabriel

    6 years ago
    Bless you, 1 & ALL!!!
  • NewDay4Caroline

    6 years ago
    I just finished reading your article "What I Found in the Pantry." You are a great writer. I couldn't stop reading and appreciate the inspiration that you are offering everyone that reads about your situation.

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