I hope it will go well with you. With so many years of depression experience behind me, I can tell you the secret is to first discover with a doctor's help what is "normal" depression, and what is clinical depression. Normal depression can be helped or solved entirely via proper diet (elimination of stimulants, and adopting an 80% or more whole foods diet as opposed to a processed foods / meat diet predominantly), stress reduction, and addressing your problem issues and learning new strategies to cope with and/or solve them.
Clinical depression is the kind that has to be solved by drugs, sadly. There are two other things which will assist greatly(!), though not typically replace drugs. First is to first get your Vitamin D levels checked. Most Americans are low in Vitamin D. I was, and once it was brought to normal levels with my endocrinologist's help, I began taking daily D3 supplements according to the dosage he specified for my body. My depression, after 35 years of suffering madly from it, went away. That's not always the case though.
The second thing is daily, vigorous exercise. Not always the easiest thing to do. But my doctor's always said that in study after study it works better than any drug, and it's proven by the people that hand out the drugs for a living. So that's also a big help. But the bottom line is that for 99% of people with clinical depression issues, it will eventually come back to proper drug management and all that goes with it. And there is nothing wrong with that at all. It's simply part of life, like a person with diabetes who takes insulin to stay alive. Add to that exercise and proper diet, and you can greatly lessen the amount of medicine you take and have a much better quality of life.
My suggestion is to start with the Vitamin D test. It may solve all your problems right there. It did for me... 35 years too late.